Category: Writers Block
I used to wait for light because I believed it was older than the dark,
I used to wait for dreams because I believed they were things of the light.
Now I only wait tiredly for shadows and watch everything pass in a daze,
Weighed down by my own life, I stumble on the rock-strewn path.
Sent to my knees by the hands distorting my life,
When you came all that weight lifted away.
Can I wait for you, will you be there?
I don't know if you see what I do,
Only your face, as I get back to my feet,
Get my bearings, and move on.
I would reach out to you but I am afraid,
Would you turn me away or would you not?
And now I sit here waiting for the tired old shadows,
And I don't believe in dreams because they're fickle, illusory things,
And I gave up on emotion and on my heart.
Why did you reach back out to me, what drew you?
I thought you hated me, like they all used to.
Oh fickle heart, will it hurt me again?
Tell me please that you're not a lie too,
Because I'll be honest, I don't know if I can let you fade away.
I honestly don't know what to say,
I honestly don't know how to say it.
If I lay open my heart will you step on it and stick a knife in it?
It deserves it, it's a traitor thing.
If I'm honest to you will you call me weak
Just like they always do?
Should I follow my heart or does it lie,
Should I find the words to say or would I only fall on my face?
I just don't know what to say,
Here I lay open my heart, please recognize what it means.
If you don't, that's okay,
I'll never find the words to say.
Here I lay bare a secret I was afraid to show,
My words I promise are from the heart,
Because I'd die before I lied to you.
Should I let my t(aitor heart have its way,
Or just forget what I want to say,
And let you figure it all out another day
And then it may all be too late.
I'd never hurt you in any way. Yes. I'd help you in any way I could. I'd never step on your heart, its to precious for that.
I'm not sure if you were writing this for me or not, but I just wanted to say that If you did, I'm always here for you!
I wasn't Deaven, oh I'm so sorry to two people, my heart is a traitor. A goddamn traitor. I shouldn't have posted this in the first place. Chris N should revoke my writers' block and deep thoughts board access from midnight to 8 a.m. in the morning or something...
wow, i love it
It's pretty I know, that was sort of the point, and that I was trying to put as much emotion as I could in here. Despite what many may see or think, I don't usually do that anymore up here, I think I did it... twice. And it was never like this. I took a risk of hurting people, and getting hurt, when I posted this, but it will all work out in the end the way it was supposed to so whether I get hurt or don't, I have the one reassurance that everything works out, and if I get hurt or anyone gets hurt at first its most likely that in the end we'll all understand why.
hmmm.